I haven't even officially started back to work yet, and this year is already proving to be draining...at least emotionally.
I've been in and out of the building all week getting things ready for the coming year. Yesterday I had a run-in with a colleague that was not the most fun way to start the year. Today my work-best-friend/mentor resigned to take a job at another corporation. We cried together off and on all morning because of the change, and how it will be scary for both of us. She is the sole reason I've been able to stick it out and keep being a teacher. She's taught me everything I know about what I do...and I'm not quite sure what I'll do without her there. I'm happy for her...but sad at the same time. It'll be rough at first, that's for sure.
I also just got an email that one of our administrators (the only one who I felt really ever had my back) saying that he also resigned today to take another job.
If I'm doing the math correctly, that will be 10 out of 33 staff members that are leaving this year. That's a lot of change. That's a lot of new people coming in. I've worked at this job going on 4 years now and I've seen so many people come and go that it's almost funny. (And there are reasons for such high turnover...I'm the first to admit it.) But it makes accepting those new people that come in really difficult. I've learned to put up walls. That's probably the biggest issue I face with my colleagues. I've watched people come and go so often that I don't trust anyone who comes in. I don't trust that they'll stay. I don't trust that they have these kids' best interest at heart. I don't trust that they appreciate all the blood, sweat, and tears I've put into this school for 4 years. It's hard.
We suffered a big loss today, especially in terms of support. I'm not sure how I feel about the upcoming year, to be honest. I'm not dreading it...but I'm not excited either. I think I'll have to wait and see how it goes. I'm hopeful for this new batch of students I'm about to get. I anticipate that I'm going to have a great year in terms of actually teaching...but it's the other stuff. The staff-morale stuff. That's what I'm not too sure of right now. But only time will tell.
xoxo, wife.
I've been in and out of the building all week getting things ready for the coming year. Yesterday I had a run-in with a colleague that was not the most fun way to start the year. Today my work-best-friend/mentor resigned to take a job at another corporation. We cried together off and on all morning because of the change, and how it will be scary for both of us. She is the sole reason I've been able to stick it out and keep being a teacher. She's taught me everything I know about what I do...and I'm not quite sure what I'll do without her there. I'm happy for her...but sad at the same time. It'll be rough at first, that's for sure.
I also just got an email that one of our administrators (the only one who I felt really ever had my back) saying that he also resigned today to take another job.
If I'm doing the math correctly, that will be 10 out of 33 staff members that are leaving this year. That's a lot of change. That's a lot of new people coming in. I've worked at this job going on 4 years now and I've seen so many people come and go that it's almost funny. (And there are reasons for such high turnover...I'm the first to admit it.) But it makes accepting those new people that come in really difficult. I've learned to put up walls. That's probably the biggest issue I face with my colleagues. I've watched people come and go so often that I don't trust anyone who comes in. I don't trust that they'll stay. I don't trust that they have these kids' best interest at heart. I don't trust that they appreciate all the blood, sweat, and tears I've put into this school for 4 years. It's hard.
We suffered a big loss today, especially in terms of support. I'm not sure how I feel about the upcoming year, to be honest. I'm not dreading it...but I'm not excited either. I think I'll have to wait and see how it goes. I'm hopeful for this new batch of students I'm about to get. I anticipate that I'm going to have a great year in terms of actually teaching...but it's the other stuff. The staff-morale stuff. That's what I'm not too sure of right now. But only time will tell.
xoxo, wife.
I'm sorry to hear that your friend is leaving. I know what a great friendship you have made with her. But, give the newbies a chance...there just might be a future "bestie" among them!!
ReplyDeleteI certainly hope so. (In other news, my mother used the word "newbie" and "bestie" in the same sentence. What's next...gonna start posting selfies?) :)
DeleteI knew you were going to say something about that!! LOL Bahahaha :)
DeleteKeep your chin up Lisa, I am sure that you can do whatever you set your mind to do. And hopefully out of all those new
ReplyDeletepeople coming in you will find a good friend again.
Love ya